She changed to be cold, so that no one could hurt her.
And I learned ‘You deserve better’
was sometimes no more
than a synonym for ‘I don’t want to hurt you,
and I want you to be happy,
but I don’t love you anymore.
I want to be there every time,
You look in a mirror,
And don’t like what you see.
So I can remind you,
That a mirror is only a reflection,
If you let it be.
The things that stress me out haven’t changed.
But I don’t wanna lose anything.
So I thought that at least I would change.
I’m lucky…that I’m afraid of losing something.
I hope that someday
You are good enough for yourself.
I hope you’ll look out at the city
Through your apartment window
And stop thinking about
If everyone else is brokenhearted too.
I hope you stop leaving the lights on
When you close your eyelids
Just so you can pretend no time has passed
And you’re still learning.
Dear person in metaphorical khakis,
I hope you get out of the prison
You have created yourself.
I hope you finally learn what it is
To feel lonely.
When you feel lonely, you feel as if
There will never be another person
To touch you ever again.
I hope when you are sitting in the tub
Hugging your shivering knees
You remember that you’ve still got time.
I hope you remember that human contact
Is a natural thing to want.
Dear beloved, I hope you find
The person you can touch in a movie theatre-
Just palm on palm, fingers entwined
Nothing more than skin and flesh and
Nails and sweat and
Dear beloved, I hope you feel like
Nothing is ever going to happen again.
I hope you sit on the bedroom floor
Head pounding from a shortage of tears
Heart aching with a sort of confusion
No amount of knowledge could ever fill.
I hope you realize that fear
Is a language, too.
I hope you fall down to the bottom
Of the well and make it out alive
Just so you learn of your strength-
Just so you learn
How to do it again.
When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth.
You said you wouldn’t, but you did.